Meenadchi

Soma Connection

I worked with SoMa Integrative Wellness for 5 weeks to address aspects of racial equity work. The first two weeks were focused on my own ancestral wounds, needs for healing, and how these wounds contributed to my own patterns of anti-Blackness. The last three weeks were focused specifically on my anti-Blackness and the shadow work that is mine to do. In the first two weeks, I worked with nisha. I experienced nisha as holding a gentle container for exploration, where I could reconnect with my breath and the watery space that exists within me. nisha’s South Asian lineage and our shared commonalities gave me breathing room to tap into aspects of my stored memory. I had been unable to access these memories alone, and I do not know that they would have awoken with a non-South Asian practitioner. In the last three weeks, I worked with MeLisa. I experienced MeLisa as a sturdy shadow mirror. MeLisa held a firm container for me to become increasingly present with my unacknowledged anti-Blackness, my discomfort, and locating my autonomy in doing this work. My work with MeLisa reminded me that we do shadow work in order to move deeper into our light. Since working with MeLisa, I have had conversations with my Black beloveds that I have not in decades worth of friendship. I am a facilitator and bodyworker, which means any elements of internalized white supremacy come with me into the spaces I hold and detrimentally impacts my clients. Since working with MeLisa and nisha, my self-awareness is more nuanced, but there is a lot left to explore. I do not know the lengths this journey will take or the nature of the fruits it will yield. What I do know is that any lessons that are harvested will be a direct reflection of the ongoing effort and commitment that I invest. I am grateful to these practitioners for their work with me and their work in the world.

Meenadchi